Silence...

Sunday night again, and I'm up all by myself.  The house was silent tonight by 8:30.  It has been so peaceful, but yet I wish that I had someone to cuddle up on the couch with.  Any one of them would do right now. But no, the time is ticking away faster and faster and I know that if I don't hit the hay soon I'll be sorry come morning.  I find it so irritating how a six hour shift at work can feel like 6 days but yet two hours of silence feels like 20 minutes.  Point being... I got nothing done while everyone was out of my hair.  Oh well, I'm sure it will all be waiting for me come morning.
Looking forward to a week full of good blogging~

Searching for my purpose

Okay, so here I am weeks later from my last post.  I'm finding myself searching for "me" everyday.  I've discovered that sometimes that hardest person to find can be yourself.  I feel lost.  I'm struggling to find my purpose.  Yes, I know that part of it is to be a wonderful mother and wife and all of that good jazz, but what else am I supposed to be doing???  Right now is when I wish I had that crystal ball.  I know that my future is not for me to know.  I understand that he knows the plans he has for me.  I get it!  But for now, what direction am I supposed to be putting my focus in???

"HELP!!!!"

"I FEEL LOST!!!"

I've been considering going back to school, my cosmetology license is getting me nowhere and I hate doing hair.  Or maybe helping out at the boutique in town, since I love that kind of stuff.  Maybe, I should just push on with my blog, I do love writing in it (but I'm always worried about what my readers think).  I don't know, but what I DO KNOW is that we need more income.  How can I contribute?  I don't want to be a waitress the rest of my life, but it sure does work out well for right now.  But, I also don't want to wait too much longer before deciding to go back to school.  Every week I feel like maybe, just maybe, I've figured it out.  And then, WOW, maybe not.

Please, will somebody tell me that they've been "here".  Will you share your story or tell me how you found some peace maybe?

United with an old flame

So, I guess you could say that I'm obsessed again.  I love it when this time of year comes around!  I feel as though I have been married to our local community center again lately.  As the warm weather seasons are quickly approaching us again, I figured it was time to try to get back into shape.  Old shape would have meant new wardrobe and and bad financial choices.  I'm not sure why I do this to myself, eat like a pig 8 months out of the year to sweat like a pig for the other 4. 
So anyways, I've set some goals, that I'll maybe share with you another time, and have been working my little heart out. For he past five weeks my routine has consisted of 5-6 cardio and strength training workouts and 2-3 lap swimming sessions each week.  I love how I feel after all of this and I hope that I can keep it up.  Since I hate diets, this is what I'm doing to prepare for shorts and swimsuits. 
Share with me what it is that your doing to prepare yourself for summer, or maybe your naturally blessed and don't have to do anything.  
HAPPY SPRING!

feeling like a bad mom

It's a terrible feeling, sending your children to bed after an evening of arguments.  My DD and I really seemed to hit it off tonight and it sure wasn't on the right foot if you know what I mean.  Now I'm spending time by myself wondering what I have done wrong as a parent.  Where did I mess up?  Although I'm sure that this won't be the last time I ask myself these questions, and I'm sure that I'm doing a fine job of parenting, it just kills me when we have these horrible days. 

But, my last words to her with a smile tonight were....

I'm your mom and I'll always be your mom,

Your my daughter and you'll always be my daughter,

And I love you and I will always love you!

And nothing can ever change that!

Now, I'm off to bed, but first I'm going to pray over my sleeping children that I have been blessed with and love ver so much.

Spring!

Oh how wonderful. 
Spring is in the air and the snow is melted. 
The grass is still brown but green in some spots. 
The bikes are out of storage and the band aids are stocked.
Boats are being uncovered and cleaned.
Signed up for summer ball.
Streaming through thoughts of flowers and vegetables.
Explaining why it's still light at bedtime.
Windows are open and the fresh smell of spring is all through the house.
Boots are ready to be packed and spring jackets are out.
Birds are chirping and the sun is shining.
Please Spring, stay in the air.
Oh how wonderful this just might be.

Restaurant etiquette

Apparently my job might be getting to me this week, so this is what I had to write...

Part I : For Adults


Upon entering a restaurant, if you have to walk by a Please Wait To Be Seated sign to seat yourself....... then don't expect prompt service any time soon. Waiting to be seated just may have been quicker after all.

When you have been seated at a particular table, don't get up and move to a different one on your own..... ask someone kindly if it would be a problem to switch tables to better accommodate you. There usually is a rotation of tables between servers. (And bring your menus with you if you move!)

When your server has asked if your ready to order or if you would like a few more minutes, don't tell them that your ready and then take you time to decide between your top 4 choices. We have plenty of other things that we can be getting done while you are finalizing your decision.

Listen closely and communicate with your server. There's probably nothing that drives me more nuts than when I make a trip to a table and ask "is there anything else that I can get you right know other than a refill on your soda?" and the customer rudely replies, "yeah, some more pop!" (Isn't that what I just said?)

I understand that it's all great and dandy to go out to eat and have someone wait on us hand and foot, but it is very hard to be an excellent and efficient server when you are repeatedly making trips back and forth to the same table because they decided they would tell you everything they needed before the end of the evening, one item at a time. As if you can't multi-task?!

Don't continue to shake your empty glass of ice, irritating everyone around you, while trying to get your servers attention. Chances are they probably already noticed that you needed another beverage and are trying to get you one as quickly as possible. Or, simply make eye contact to draw attention to your empty glass.

Tell your server immediately if there is a problem with your meal. Don't wait until almost everything is gone and then decide to complain about it. Chances are that you will not get any compensation since you waited until everything was gone. Apparently it was still okay to eat so NO you won't get your money back or something FREE!

As a server who depends on her tips as her main source of income, here comes a huge pet peeve..... If you cannot afford to tip correctly then you should not be eating out!

This list here is to just name a few things that might just make your next trip out to dinner a little bit more enjoyable for you and your server.

Five Question Friday

Okay, so I'm excited to tell you that today is my very first time participating in the Five Question Friday.  I've been following it a while now, but I thought that today would be a great day to start since these are some of the questions that I have been getting asked lately. 

So, here's to those of you who want to know my answers...

 (And when your done, hop over to Mama M's to see what she had to say)

1. How much time do you spend on the computer a day?

Well, I feel as though I should be extremely embarrassed to admit this answer, however I'm not, well maybe a little bit.  Anyways, does probably too much count for an answer?  I guess it depends who your talking to.  Regardless of how much time, does it even matter as long as everything is done by the time the fam gets home?  Alright, I'll just tell you that it's A LOT!!!  If mama ain't got her screen time then nobody's happy ;)

And I still ask myself how I can't keep up with my blog posts as much as I would like.  (I'll let you know that answer when I figure it out.)


2. Will you pay for your children's college or raise them to pay for their own way?
It's funny that this question came up since I was just talking about this lately.  My DH and I have partially decided that the two children we have may be all that we have, since we would like to help provide for them as much as possible.  We definitely plan to teach them responsibilities and good money management as they become teens so that they can manage their money wisely and help contribute to paying their way through school. However we understand the importance of extended education and plan to help them out with such expenses, but only to get them up and going. 
I guess we'll see, only times will tell!


3. Have you ever been in a car accident?
I feel like answering this question could possibly set me up for a curse, but then again I guess that I could count this one time. 
Shortly after my high school best friend and I had our license, we were following each other back home from a day of shopping in the town.  We were both waiting at a stop sign for an opening so that we could pull out onto the highway.  As a break in traffic came I saw her begin to pull out slowly, so I began to follow her slowly.  As I looked to check again that there was enough room for me to pull out behind her, I began to accelerate until I was stopped by her bumper.  She apparently decided that she was going to wait at the sign a little longer, who knows.  To add the humor of these two blondes, they decide to get out and check the damage (there wasn't any, absolutely no trace of anything that had happened which saved our butts) and then just sat with our cars practically in the middle of the road to chat about it for awhile. 
But then again, if that's only the worst?!?!

4. What is your favorite book?
I really don't like to admit it, but hmmm... I don't think I have a favorite book.  You see, I've always wanted to be one who loved to read novels, but I just can't do it.  I'm not sure if it's because it seems to take me so long, or if I just truly can't get into it.  On the other hand I do enjoy reading magazines occasionally and I also like Christian books that have to deal with self improvement.  Okay.... and I love to read some of my favorite blogs!
5. Do you make your bed everyday?
Do I make my bed everyday????..........  Well, I'm starting to finally get the hang of it.  I would probably say that I make it about 5/7 days a week.  I can't seem to keep our room very clean, so when I make my bed it helps me to feel better about the other part of the mess that consumes the remainder of the room.
Hey, whatever works!!!


To post your very own Five Question Friday visit here to find out how.
~HAPPY FRIDAY~