Etsy

Well, if you noticed or you haven't, take a look down at the bottom of my side bar.  Yup, that's my Etsy store.  I know, only two items in there right now, but "my" perfection takes time.  I've lots of downloading anf uploading to do, and by Monday it should look like a REAL STORE!!!  I've been working very hard on a few things and I can't wait to share them with you. 
Make sure to stop by again soon and check in at http://www.etsy.com/shop/jenniferlj
Go ahead and leave some advice here in the comment section.  Anything that you like or that I can improve on.

Oh how proud...

After 4+ months of what seemed to be endless, school and studying, he's almost there.  My DH has been schooling for his EMT certificate, while I've felt like I've been single parenting it while he's been away.  Last night he took one of the many tests that he has left in order to become certified and...... he passed!  One down and two more to go.  We have been so grateful for this education that has been given to him at no cost, through the Fire Department.  We are truly blessed with the Department that we have and they are so amazing.
Cheers! ... to my hubby's accomplishments.

Silence...

Sunday night again, and I'm up all by myself.  The house was silent tonight by 8:30.  It has been so peaceful, but yet I wish that I had someone to cuddle up on the couch with.  Any one of them would do right now. But no, the time is ticking away faster and faster and I know that if I don't hit the hay soon I'll be sorry come morning.  I find it so irritating how a six hour shift at work can feel like 6 days but yet two hours of silence feels like 20 minutes.  Point being... I got nothing done while everyone was out of my hair.  Oh well, I'm sure it will all be waiting for me come morning.
Looking forward to a week full of good blogging~

Searching for my purpose

Okay, so here I am weeks later from my last post.  I'm finding myself searching for "me" everyday.  I've discovered that sometimes that hardest person to find can be yourself.  I feel lost.  I'm struggling to find my purpose.  Yes, I know that part of it is to be a wonderful mother and wife and all of that good jazz, but what else am I supposed to be doing???  Right now is when I wish I had that crystal ball.  I know that my future is not for me to know.  I understand that he knows the plans he has for me.  I get it!  But for now, what direction am I supposed to be putting my focus in???

"HELP!!!!"

"I FEEL LOST!!!"

I've been considering going back to school, my cosmetology license is getting me nowhere and I hate doing hair.  Or maybe helping out at the boutique in town, since I love that kind of stuff.  Maybe, I should just push on with my blog, I do love writing in it (but I'm always worried about what my readers think).  I don't know, but what I DO KNOW is that we need more income.  How can I contribute?  I don't want to be a waitress the rest of my life, but it sure does work out well for right now.  But, I also don't want to wait too much longer before deciding to go back to school.  Every week I feel like maybe, just maybe, I've figured it out.  And then, WOW, maybe not.

Please, will somebody tell me that they've been "here".  Will you share your story or tell me how you found some peace maybe?

United with an old flame

So, I guess you could say that I'm obsessed again.  I love it when this time of year comes around!  I feel as though I have been married to our local community center again lately.  As the warm weather seasons are quickly approaching us again, I figured it was time to try to get back into shape.  Old shape would have meant new wardrobe and and bad financial choices.  I'm not sure why I do this to myself, eat like a pig 8 months out of the year to sweat like a pig for the other 4. 
So anyways, I've set some goals, that I'll maybe share with you another time, and have been working my little heart out. For he past five weeks my routine has consisted of 5-6 cardio and strength training workouts and 2-3 lap swimming sessions each week.  I love how I feel after all of this and I hope that I can keep it up.  Since I hate diets, this is what I'm doing to prepare for shorts and swimsuits. 
Share with me what it is that your doing to prepare yourself for summer, or maybe your naturally blessed and don't have to do anything.  
HAPPY SPRING!

feeling like a bad mom

It's a terrible feeling, sending your children to bed after an evening of arguments.  My DD and I really seemed to hit it off tonight and it sure wasn't on the right foot if you know what I mean.  Now I'm spending time by myself wondering what I have done wrong as a parent.  Where did I mess up?  Although I'm sure that this won't be the last time I ask myself these questions, and I'm sure that I'm doing a fine job of parenting, it just kills me when we have these horrible days. 

But, my last words to her with a smile tonight were....

I'm your mom and I'll always be your mom,

Your my daughter and you'll always be my daughter,

And I love you and I will always love you!

And nothing can ever change that!

Now, I'm off to bed, but first I'm going to pray over my sleeping children that I have been blessed with and love ver so much.

Spring!

Oh how wonderful. 
Spring is in the air and the snow is melted. 
The grass is still brown but green in some spots. 
The bikes are out of storage and the band aids are stocked.
Boats are being uncovered and cleaned.
Signed up for summer ball.
Streaming through thoughts of flowers and vegetables.
Explaining why it's still light at bedtime.
Windows are open and the fresh smell of spring is all through the house.
Boots are ready to be packed and spring jackets are out.
Birds are chirping and the sun is shining.
Please Spring, stay in the air.
Oh how wonderful this just might be.